This work started with an image-textual essay with a story describing the first 2 weeks of the large-scale Russian military invasion to Ukraine. It tells about the ordinary experience of me — a civilian from Kyiv. Another part of the work was the first short video with the sound of the siren, which I tried to exhibit in art spaces and streets of EU countries to alarm, trigger, and show what the sound every person in Ukraine listens to many times during the day since 24th of February. In most cases, I was denied. More I knew about the massacres, executions, destruction of villages and towns — my diary totally lost any sense. After the first month of the Russian war in Ukraine all words and images lost sense. Maybe, with the exception of reportages, and constant callings: EU! Stop investing to the war! NATO! Provide weapons immediately!